We had something very sad happen in our preschool this year. One of the preschool teachers, Miss Debbie, was convicted of vehicular manslaughter and given the maximum sentence of 6 years in prison. She was texting while driving and ran right into the back of a car. That car exploded and the woman driving was killed before anyone could get her out of the car. It is such a sad situation from all aspects. I have to feel for the family of the woman who was killed--what a horrible way for someone to die. But on the other hand, I know and love Miss Debbie and both Lindsay and Emma have had her as a teacher and love her too. So we, of course, don't want her to have to go to jail for what was essentially a really horrible mistake. Anyway, this all happened a couple of months ago and since Miss Debbie is now serving six years in prison, she is (obviously) unable to be at preschool. I kept thinking that Emma would stop asking where Miss Debbie was, so I kept evading her questions. But, Emma, being the tenacious, loving little munchkin she is, just continues to ask about or mention Miss Debbie on an almost daily basis. "Where is she? Is she very sick? Did she have to go to the hospital? Miss Debbie still isn't in my preschool, did she move?" Finally, I decided that she wasn't going to just forget about Miss Debbie, so, this morning I decided to tell her what happened (I wasn't going to keep lying to her forever about it).
So, we were driving home from dropping Lindsay off at kindergarten when Emma starts talking again about Miss Debbie and why she has been gone for so long. I respond, as gently as possible that Miss Debbie isn't going to be able to come back to Emma's preschool.
"Not EVER?" she asks with big innocent eyes. (They don't let convicted felons work with preschool children, soooo . . . . )
"No, honey, Miss Debbie isn't going to ever be able to come back to your preschool."
"Why not?" So, I proceed to explain that Miss Debbie made a very big mistake and she was looking at her cell phone when she was driving and got in an accident and had to go to people jail, just like Dumbo's mommy had to go to Elephant jail when she threw the little boy across the circus tent. This is the only reference she has to jail, but she seems to grasp the concept of Miss Debbie having to go to jail. But, this information releases a FLOOD of questions.
"After she get's out of the people jail will she be able to come back to my preschool?"--No.
"Where is the people jail at?" --I don't know.
"Mommy haven't you been in an accident before?--Yes, twice
"Did you go to people jail?" -- No
"Why did Miss Debbie have to go to people jail and you didn't?" -- Because Miss Debbie got in an accident with another car and the person in the other car died and went to heaven.
"What color was the car that she got in an accident with?" -- I really don't know.
And the questions went on and on. For about an hour she was completely fixated on it and just fired off one question after another trying to understand what had happened. Then, it was like it finally hit her--none of those questions mattered. And she looks up at me with big sad eyes and says very slowly . . . "Miss Debbie isn't ever going to be able to come back to my preschool because she has to go to people jail."
"Yes, honey, she made a big mistake, and she won't be able to come back to your preschool."
Those big eyes start to tear up, then she snuggles up against me and says, "That makes me feel very sad."
And I just have to tell you, it makes me feel very sad too!